Observing

hmm..
I'm feeling kinda lazy nowadays to update my blog.
Mainly because I'm surfing a few websites at the same time, leaving 'New Post' there staring blankly at me; so I wrote blank things in return. And by the way, I'm itching to type in Mandarin again. I dunno why but I feel it helps me express more than what Eng can. It's funny you know, I used to thought that I have a fling with Eng, as I love to write and think (yeah, thinking) in Eng.
But no choice, I wanna type more in Eng to see how far my grammar goes. So in case I'm having major gram mistake do notify me haha~

Well school's been a rush as usual. BUT, I feel that I'm starting to catch up: I can actually pay 35% more concentration in class compared to last time. Not bad, a leap at least...
Cuz there are things (a lot of things actually) happening around me, somehow they are so #*^#ing annoying, that they prompted me to build this wall of emotions. It's a huge barrier, against unpleasent thoughts and raw emotions + laziness. It kinda work.
But I'm acting more weird. Eg, I wanna say something that's important to someone or else it may cause some misunderstanding, I somehow didn't express myself, and other things which are similiar to this incident. Here's the flaw of my barrier: Difficulty to express.

Of this wall thingy, I learnt about it from articles concerning psychology, online. Pretty awkward when you first heard it, but in fact it's so true, not those felt like made up weird thingy. As what I'd deduce from my observations. Some of my friends have this partial barrier too, in order to concentrate, they choose to ignore certain events and people some times, which rather annoy me. Imagine I'm talking to you, and you and I knew that you're listening, but you act like I ain't talking to you. =.= Well this barrier is for me to filter minor things out, more of a sort of 'meditating' while in conscious state, to block other outer influences and to focus on a particular subject. @.@ lame i know...
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Call me bitter. But lots of people today love to act like they know it all. Not pointing my finger to anybody particular but rather the events happening around me. See, a problem statement came in, and this people would like *eyes roll* talk like they're some kinda wise man or a great leader who have this solution or answer. I would wish that it struck them to do self-reflections and ego-checking first XD. To avoid confusion, they're not any yall know I guess. They're people with face I recognice but name unknown, so it's not anyone of yall, chill~ ^^

Coming to this topic, I do realise from my observ (haha I'm a self-indulging observer/questioner, I'm goin to the point of Mr. Know-it-all :P) that people tend to judge the behaviours of other people without really doing a full research. Myself included but that's the past tense already (Sometimes, I doubt it was a past @_@ like right now (?) ).
See, it's like through one's decision or action, we tend to label or brand that person, which is really not a good thing. Circumstances change people. We do not know how one feels when one is carrying out an action.

Human judge with emotion, and rarely with logic.
(A quote from Fullmetal Achemist XD, nicest anime I've seen this year so far)
But good friends do not do that :) we see each other's flaws, yet we appreciate each other for being able to blend with it, and overlook jagged edge over to their flawless edge ^^

Anyway, a break from my 'observations'.
Hmm.. In the near near future, I would definitely write a blog post back in Chi. Then sorta change this blog into a music platform haha... Which the music have lesser mainstream attention ones. Then upload some pix I had taken to share with yall bout my life in the past few weeks/month (Definitely not S.S. pix XD). Oh yeah, I would love to add a music cafe theme to this blog. Yup, cafe, with coffees and evening teas, my fav. With late evening sky and rainy day and night time ^^ that is until I'd learn how to change blog's HTML thingy yet. Haha.

Exams coming. Try hard. If it stuck, try harder :)
Strive together...