To A New Place

I have no more desire to write here anymore..new place perhaps??

One

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...

One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...

Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One...life

One

R.I.P. 黑怪

小狗Teddy来以后小妹就很少陪它了。
但我也不怪她，人之常情...

黑怪它乃家中第一个宝。贪吃、好动、友善、还很香下xP（因为他很黏妹，沾到了妹头发的洗发水味道）。
生前拍下了它很多的照片，全老鼠家族它的最多。

希望你一路好走...

黑怪
xx/xx/08 - 21/07/10

Nostalgic

Form 6 Physics 2 (nvm whether upper or lower or not ^^) celebrated Pn. Nur Jannah's birthday today.

Wc and I went to Zen yesterday and bought Chocolate Indulgence from Zen.
Kada and crew came up with this great idea to make a huge board with pockets each labelled with an alphabet (symbols included) of ' "Happy Birthday Pn. Nur Jannah" ', each pockets inserted with a card from all members of 6F2, with our wishes and a pic so that she'll never forget our faces. Li-Za proposed that all of us went missing to surprise Pn. NJ, which just a few participated lol =.=
Still, we prepared the cake at F3, Peh with his guitar, lc there stand by to sing, with other class members who 'went missing' outside and we went in...

Situation gets merrier when lc, samson and also weesern also joined in to perform. Then our lovebirds classmate jk and grace are asked to intro their partner to Pn. NJ...
The part where everybody sing, reminds me so much of the great, crazy, laid back time we had last year. Never in my secondary school life as been this interesting haha...

I'll never forget this day...

Our days in school are really numbered. Everybody gotta work hard now. Especially you lc and ks, lol
We'll work together k...

精神革命

剩下大概三个月半了，是时候闭门练功咯。

These Days

These days, I'm feeling a lil more optimistic inside me...
Which is a good sign for me hehe... Imma luvin' the laid-back, crazy sick attitude I'm having now. Don't really care too much anymore...

Hmm, a friend of mine suggested that this blog is too boring. Haha thanks for telling me.. I gotta add some flavours in it.

So, today I wanna introduce y'all to my tiny fam members.

The Youngest Son.
Chubby(and when I said chubby
I meant fat), dreamy and anti-social

Mommy.
Hot(got curves xP), gentle and
by now delivered more than 10 babies gua...

The Father.
Most popular, photogenic,
spoiled by sis, lovable.

Mom with her eye 'winked'

Little Pink Hooded Papa, just bathed, and get spoiled~

lol...too much picture of them, can't put them sekali gus so maybe again next time ba..

xx xx

最近很乱啊我的头脑～不懂做么会酱。。。。该去学静坐养神。。。

要开学了。虽然有读到书、做到练习但还是不足够。
又有一个王八蛋R＆D要做，显！

近来脾气会比较坏点。姓杨的（不是我）！我很想再跟你吵架多一次。你竟然可以什么都不管什么都不理，真的很想巴你。认识了你这么久，就中六我们不断地翻脸又和好，这样重复很累。你几时变得这么X了？算了我也显了，你自己来加把劲吧。。

xx xx

讲开心的。昨天party很爽，回家时已三点了哈哈swt～ 过后第一次看足球赛－巴西对朝鲜，到四点多，刺激。长得这么大了才会欣赏足球赛 xP 巴西万岁！朝鲜也不错，虽然我是反共的但你们真的很好，起码也为亚洲争光，输得也光彩有专业。今天补六小时的习，要颠了哈哈。。。

大家加油！！

Thanks

MUET Night is over. I kinda miss performing on stage and yeah, it's my first time performing on stage- and I'm loving it ^^

Thanks to:-
>>Lc. For inviting me to join the opening act of Bad Romance, I really enjoy it.
Bravo too for making the seemingly impossible/fussy MUET Night happened.
>>Kb. For choreographing, even though I don't really like my 'solo' haha but thanks for the part.
>>Every dancers. For sportingly coming out of our shells and hit the stage.
>>David. For leading this double-dose-MV of our class.
>>Li-Za. For her dedication, and getting thru this headache by tirelessly keeping the sailing straight.
>>also to Kada. For her sheer determination and courage.

Bad Romance

Watch the vid here

After this: Revision + revision + revision.
All Form 6 add oil ya.

Vesak

from my view...

• is the day when Siddhata Gautama was borned, has attained enlightenment and died. These events occured in the same day.
  
• Buddhism is not a religion as most people interpret it, since it does not preaches god(s) and sets rules for its devotees to follow. It is not much of philosophy or ideology either. According to sangha (monks) and most practitioner, Buddhism is a way of life. The common goal for Buddhists is to be liberated from all forms of sufferings, physical ailments and reincarnation, and wisdom via attaining enlightenment.
  
• Many mistaken the Buddha as a god/deity. Buddha is also been mistaken as the maker of universe or God for us Buddhist. In actual fact, he is a man who cannot create miracle or procure magic.
  
  
• Enlightenment/Nirvana, as of my interpretation and as most Buddhist believe, is where a human attained a state where he/she is able to seek truths; is free of any desires, negativity and cannot be moved by any temptations; no longer be bound by reincarnation and physical ailments; and is very wise.
  Buddha has the ability to help people who have trouble with their lives and lead them, like a teacher teaching students in their studies. He serves as more or less a spiritual psychotherapist too.
  
  
• There are 3 main branch of Buddhism: Theravada, Mahayana and Vajrayana; alongside Zen, Pure Land sect etc..
  The main branches existing in Malaysia are Mahayana, where most of the devotees are Chinese and its teachings here blends together with Pure Land sect; Theravada, where its monks are mostly from Nepal, Sri Lanka or India. Theravada is said to be the closest to the oldest teachings.
  
  
• Buddhism encourages open-mindedness and logic thinking. Unlike what most TV shows portrait it as a strict, ultra-conservative religion. Hence, there are no strict rules for its devotees, only advice/restrains like the restraints: no killings, alcohols, lies, immoral sexual behavior. Only sangha need to follow the restrain strictly.
  Still, like I just said, Buddhism promotes logical and critical thinking. Eg. A monk saw a man running towards him with blood all over his body and hid beneath the bushes behind this monk. He pleads the monk to help him. Then come a man with a weapon who is finding for that hiding man. The weapon wielding man asks the monk about the hiding man's whereabouts. Since monks are not allowed to lie, aren't he supposed to tell the truth but at the same time will cost the innocent man's life?
  Well in this case, it is not an offense for the monk to tell lie. This is where I like to clear the stereotypes of Buddhist monks as straight-thinking persons.
  We do not believe in unforgivable sins and permanent residency in hell.
  We also accept any social views as long as it does not psychologically harm the society and causes great sufferings.
  
  
• Buddhism ponders life, not creationism.
  
  
• When Buddhism is just established, there are no written word yet in Northen India. The Dharma (Buddha's teaching) is passed down verbally until words are created. There are also not much restrictions in Buddhism, devotees are free to interpret what they believe and not to follow blindly. Sadly, most Buddhists are rather superstitious and accept blindly what is taught to them. Different branches have different approaches and believes, where some like in Thailand and certain sects that blended with other believes like Pure Land are more religion-like, which leads to misinterpretations from others. This scene is can be seen in shows like 西游记.
  
  
• Most people thinks that Buddhism is pessimistic. We are serious when in our elements to Buddhism because we are open to the world, we not only study the Dharma but the world, more or less like General Studies. Hence we seem to be more sobre, but underneath that mantra siting and meditation are thankfulness, understanding and calmness. We are only not as optimistic/active as others.
  
  
• FYI, the term 'Buddha' is known as The Awakened One.

lol, I'm not an educator. But I do wish to use all my knowledge on Buddhism to clear the fog surrounding Buddhism. If there's any mistakes do tell me tq.
Thanks to Bhante Kovida, Mr. Oh Kim Leng and my uncle for leading me.

Lazy

最近比较懒惰要更新部落...

刚温习化学边听电台，是爱FM的＇安全考古地带＇，主持人叫吉安。这节目令我再次对华文音乐产生了兴趣，尤其是非主流／独立系音乐。
每晚九点到十一点。本人较喜欢拜一、三、五的，分别是关于音乐／电影／艺术的谈访、传统华乐、独立西洋或华文音乐。
非常喜欢＾＾
http://jiankaogudidai.blogspot.com/

等考完试了再会回来。有挺多事情想分享。

为考试加劲吧，朋友们！

Miss You Much

18/04/10 It rained rather heavily last Saturday night.
The weather was cool, the air exceptionally fresh, the grass was wet and the soil was soft, they make the task to dig a small grave guiltily easier.

He has been a good companion. He is gentle for most of the times, and can be quite stubborn at times, just like me. There are times where I would bring him out of his small container home, and place him on top of our messy dining table so he can walk around freely. And I always remind him in Chi: ' Don't ever attempt to jump off the table. ' Which he does of course, most of the times until someday he finally at least know what I'm trying to convey and ceased to jump off. I'm really amazed at how he managed to survive that 3 feet jump judging from his size, all the time again.
He does not eat much too, he can be picky sometimes. So I switch between cereals, carrots, peanuts or pet food, and if I could some apple cubes.
He loves to exercise on the hamster's exercise ball like his mother, who is still alive now. And he can be really silly sometimes, by pooping or peeing inside the ball yet still continue to run. In the end, he created a mess.
Unlike most hamsters, he never attempt to bite you, if he's about to do so, he'll give you a gentle warning.
Like me, the two of us love to daydream. He'll sit at the corner of his home, and look like a meditating furry monk.

Before he departs, he barely touched a food nor a drop of water. It kills me inside to see a friend over the edge, and unable to do anything about it. So many fond memories I would like to share, but I guess I'll keep them to myself.
Miss you much.

米弟＠阿麦
06/01/09 - 18/04/10

Fooling in April

A lot of things progressed this month.

We got more lovebugs. And some friendships clarified, some repaired, some still hanging.
But the most important thing, is that I'm progressing.
I'm starting to pick up the pieces and really pave my way ahead.
No time to lose. Everything is so fast that if you do not make yourself to follow, you will be left out. Especially in terms of studies.
Now I realised how important it is to really finish or at least try to do those homework given. And to revise every week what you've learned cuz you'll be forgetting them after a month.
I should have done them since last year.
But, this is always me. Self-destruct before self-constructing again.

And guess what? I really appreciate Form 6. It may be the busiest and f-ed up year I ever spent on, still I'm grateful for all the friends I know this year. Especially the few of you- you know who you are.
Thanks for appearing in my life.

PS/ I LOOOVE indie musics a lot now. Mainstream is no longer my taste.

The Horizon

I used to have the map on my hands.

Out of some reasons, we lose ourselves in crossroads.

Hence, I must search for my home, once again by myself.

I need to wave away the fog, so I can see signboards again.

I must find sunshine again. Because dark clouds only pale your skin.

And on the road, I will choose to make wrong turns, because I am still allowed to.

It will be difficult to go back, as I had forgotten to cast pebbles on the paths I trodden.


But I must reach my home again.

And I promise myself, that I will reach there.

March of Life

终于再接触我的部落了...好就没来哈哈长草了...

考试成绩刚刚分完。就像 Mr. Chin 所预测，班上的女学生都崛起了，我认为前十名超过一半都是女生。 而全部科目没有 fail 的也仅仅三、四位罢了。
但对那些用工的朋友们，恭喜你们哦，耕耘付出了，希望你们再接在励！继续为理二班争光，顺便记得照顾好身子哦＾＾不然累坏就不好了...

这次三月假期过得还挺充实的。 假期前的星期五，带了妹妹跟了一班朋友去看 "Alice In Wonderland" 3D版，还第一次坐在最前的一排，看完了有点晕晕地走出来。对于那些不怎么重视影音特效的朋友，可以的话就别去买3D版的戏票吧，很废下又贵。挺Enjoy...＾＾

礼拜天，家里买了一只小狗，西施 + poodle种，两个月多的小公狗，连叫声都未成熟哈哈很可爱。 名字也还没正式地定下=P 或是NoNo/BoyBoy/Teddy／球球， 我们都还没同意要怎称呼它。 每天早上它都会来个 morning call，很烦下 T＿T 但每当他用那眼神看你的时候，你就会不舍得对它大呼小叫了哈哈。

拜四去唱K！终于再可以唱K了，等这时候很久了。LC 的唱功进步了很多，比以前更流畅百倍、想不到 AMY ＆ STEPH 唱歌很好听，高音拉得好厉害下、KB 竟会唱蓝调／爵士歌得超想样有才华；我呢？想不到会点绕舌哦哈哈... 更enjoy..＾＾

拜五去拜访婷。她真的成熟了很多 =） 女大十六变咯，很高兴再次能和你相聚。

那，星期一到四学校则有补化学课。真辛苦了老师，花力又花时间来辛辛苦苦地教我们，但很多人都没出席。


开学...
星期五更糟糕，补课出席的人数又寥寥无几，尤其是男生。 我也不想再fail化学了。我知道我可以的，Insya-Allah,今天就开始吧！不辜负老师也不浪费自己。 其实，很多时候都是学生自己的问题。老师怎么教书法不适合自己的口味也不该放纵。 中六真的跟中五的差别很大，得靠的始终是自己。

OPS！对了，星期四是Rachel & Elaine的生日。竟忘了向你们祝贺，说是迟，无论如何，十九快乐哦！！＾＾


大家加油！！

Observing

hmm..
I'm feeling kinda lazy nowadays to update my blog.
Mainly because I'm surfing a few websites at the same time, leaving 'New Post' there staring blankly at me; so I wrote blank things in return. And by the way, I'm itching to type in Mandarin again. I dunno why but I feel it helps me express more than what Eng can. It's funny you know, I used to thought that I have a fling with Eng, as I love to write and think (yeah, thinking) in Eng.
But no choice, I wanna type more in Eng to see how far my grammar goes. So in case I'm having major gram mistake do notify me haha~

Well school's been a rush as usual. BUT, I feel that I'm starting to catch up: I can actually pay 35% more concentration in class compared to last time. Not bad, a leap at least...
Cuz there are things (a lot of things actually) happening around me, somehow they are so #*^#ing annoying, that they prompted me to build this wall of emotions. It's a huge barrier, against unpleasent thoughts and raw emotions + laziness. It kinda work.
But I'm acting more weird. Eg, I wanna say something that's important to someone or else it may cause some misunderstanding, I somehow didn't express myself, and other things which are similiar to this incident. Here's the flaw of my barrier: Difficulty to express.

Of this wall thingy, I learnt about it from articles concerning psychology, online. Pretty awkward when you first heard it, but in fact it's so true, not those felt like made up weird thingy. As what I'd deduce from my observations. Some of my friends have this partial barrier too, in order to concentrate, they choose to ignore certain events and people some times, which rather annoy me. Imagine I'm talking to you, and you and I knew that you're listening, but you act like I ain't talking to you. =.= Well this barrier is for me to filter minor things out, more of a sort of 'meditating' while in conscious state, to block other outer influences and to focus on a particular subject. @.@ lame i know...
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Call me bitter. But lots of people today love to act like they know it all. Not pointing my finger to anybody particular but rather the events happening around me. See, a problem statement came in, and this people would like *eyes roll* talk like they're some kinda wise man or a great leader who have this solution or answer. I would wish that it struck them to do self-reflections and ego-checking first XD. To avoid confusion, they're not any yall know I guess. They're people with face I recognice but name unknown, so it's not anyone of yall, chill~ ^^

Coming to this topic, I do realise from my observ (haha I'm a self-indulging observer/questioner, I'm goin to the point of Mr. Know-it-all :P) that people tend to judge the behaviours of other people without really doing a full research. Myself included but that's the past tense already (Sometimes, I doubt it was a past @_@ like right now (?) ).
See, it's like through one's decision or action, we tend to label or brand that person, which is really not a good thing. Circumstances change people. We do not know how one feels when one is carrying out an action.

Human judge with emotion, and rarely with logic.
(A quote from Fullmetal Achemist XD, nicest anime I've seen this year so far)
But good friends do not do that :) we see each other's flaws, yet we appreciate each other for being able to blend with it, and overlook jagged edge over to their flawless edge ^^

Anyway, a break from my 'observations'.
Hmm.. In the near near future, I would definitely write a blog post back in Chi. Then sorta change this blog into a music platform haha... Which the music have lesser mainstream attention ones. Then upload some pix I had taken to share with yall bout my life in the past few weeks/month (Definitely not S.S. pix XD). Oh yeah, I would love to add a music cafe theme to this blog. Yup, cafe, with coffees and evening teas, my fav. With late evening sky and rainy day and night time ^^ that is until I'd learn how to change blog's HTML thingy yet. Haha.

Exams coming. Try hard. If it stuck, try harder :)
Strive together...

Rush

Life is always a rush.
Time is either chasing us, or we chase it.

Yet, I have to constantly remind myself to slow down and observe my surroundings, so that I do not miss anything beautiful passes by.
Some of my decisions are painful, so as the mistakes. But if that is it, then that's an injury that I will bear.
CNY comes to an end. School starts again.
So, I'll need to pack my suitcase now, and continue travelling.
Would you be a friend, who would join me in a bus, or follow into a limousin?

Insomnia 101

Hmm.. Lesser time of emo-ness from me and lets
Have some laughs for now.
Here's what I stumbled on Youtube today as I can't sleep right now... Kinda insomnia I guess...
So this is one of the vids that makes me laugh like $hht XD XD XD

Warning: Strictly for people who can't stand rude/vulgar (it's not porn =.=, literally :P) things. Not recommended for good boys & girls. You know who you are if you can take this in.
The offensive-less would be the last two.
While the funniest (ever!) part is at 3:30 for vid #2
BE WARNED for the first two!

Speechless

Gaga's version


My 'cover' rendition; thanks Gaga for your soulful song
I can't believe
what we've reached today
Last time it was okay...
Once again you threw your arms up
Honey, you gave up- you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at us
With your Hepburn starry loook
And after it's through
And I won't be there
Do you think I can turn my eyes all bliiind..?!

Must you walk through all the nails?
Are your speeches' just a show?

****************
So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you've left me speechless
There's no point to argue
I'm speechless
So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you left me speechless
You left me speechless
So speechless
****************

I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your insane swollen eyes
You popped my sanity
All my bubbled dreams, fantassy...

I can't believe how you replied us
With your broken spirit wail
If he gets you this time
And I'll swear I'll do a criiime...

I know it's damn complicated
But if you could just open your heart awhile
Let our voices in
Because your love is blind it is a deformed soul

****************
So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you've left me speechless
There's no point to argue
I'm speechless
So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you left me speechless
You left me speechless
So speechless
****************

And after all the drinks and trips that we've been through
You'd still give it away
You still give it away to him
And after all the peace that we have been into
You still give them away
You still give them away

Oh I promise you
That I'll never argue again
I'll never voice again
I'll leave here in a day
This I promise you

Ho-o-o-ow?
Ho-o-o-ow?
I'm speechless...

One Day...

Some day, I'll leave this place...

And never come back until I have the courage to do so...

In life, we have to depart eventually.

All that hinders is time.


Wishing all of you spaces and time to enrich your journey of self-discovery :)

Happy New Year and Happy Valentine's Day ^^

Melaka IS The New KL

Hmm... Monday's Grammy performance by Lady Gaga, P!nk and the MJ tribute are amazing! But Beyonce won 6, 6!!!?? What the... =.=

...Then Friday: Jusco/Aeon is finally OPEN!!!!! Woohoo!
And it is grand/beautiful/cool/nice/out-of-Melaka, anything- its *thumbs up*!

Its BIGGER BETTER GRANDER CHEAPER & COOLER than KL's Mid Valley, The Curve, Times Square etc or even our Dataran, those are HISTORY!
It took quite some time to find the parking since it's the opening day, and it took a longer time to get out of the compound...

But-
1 You can find practically almost every brand of clothing lines & food outlets
2 The complex's so big you can spend big time inside there
3 It seems there's gonna be a cineplex opening there soon, so finger crossed^^
4 The interior design is not bad, nice~ & there's plaenty of free food samplings :P
5 It's fresh and BIG, you might thought that you're in KL now...only BETTER than that place
6 Since it's sales now its CHEAP
7 Its modern and world-class
8 It is near my house...woohoo!

But-
Every weekend there will have traffic jams jams & jams around Bachang area now T.T

But-
It's Jusco/Aeon!

So-
Sorry for all of you out there not in Melaka, hahahaah... (lame I know)
Don't miss the spot, head there the next time you come there, not your home first XD
Finalized my CNY clothes shopping there- cheers~



This is not exactly how spacious the place is...you gotta check it out yourself haha...





There's this The Garden on the top of this complex. Even though there's plenty of parking spaces, they are still not sufficient enough foe hardcore shoppers like us...



I went into the bathroom and guess what? The cubicles are damn spacious.
And there are this these small notice board with drawn dummies either squatting or sitting on a toilet bowl, showing what type of toilet bowl is behind that door. Can't take its pic cuz it'll make me awkward XD Who actually would take pic inside the bathroom? ;p