Miss You Much

18/04/10 It rained rather heavily last Saturday night.
The weather was cool, the air exceptionally fresh, the grass was wet and the soil was soft, they make the task to dig a small grave guiltily easier.

He has been a good companion. He is gentle for most of the times, and can be quite stubborn at times, just like me. There are times where I would bring him out of his small container home, and place him on top of our messy dining table so he can walk around freely. And I always remind him in Chi: ' Don't ever attempt to jump off the table. ' Which he does of course, most of the times until someday he finally at least know what I'm trying to convey and ceased to jump off. I'm really amazed at how he managed to survive that 3 feet jump judging from his size, all the time again.
He does not eat much too, he can be picky sometimes. So I switch between cereals, carrots, peanuts or pet food, and if I could some apple cubes.
He loves to exercise on the hamster's exercise ball like his mother, who is still alive now. And he can be really silly sometimes, by pooping or peeing inside the ball yet still continue to run. In the end, he created a mess.
Unlike most hamsters, he never attempt to bite you, if he's about to do so, he'll give you a gentle warning.
Like me, the two of us love to daydream. He'll sit at the corner of his home, and look like a meditating furry monk.

Before he departs, he barely touched a food nor a drop of water. It kills me inside to see a friend over the edge, and unable to do anything about it. So many fond memories I would like to share, but I guess I'll keep them to myself.
Miss you much.

米弟＠阿麦
06/01/09 - 18/04/10

Fooling in April

A lot of things progressed this month.

We got more lovebugs. And some friendships clarified, some repaired, some still hanging.
But the most important thing, is that I'm progressing.
I'm starting to pick up the pieces and really pave my way ahead.
No time to lose. Everything is so fast that if you do not make yourself to follow, you will be left out. Especially in terms of studies.
Now I realised how important it is to really finish or at least try to do those homework given. And to revise every week what you've learned cuz you'll be forgetting them after a month.
I should have done them since last year.
But, this is always me. Self-destruct before self-constructing again.

And guess what? I really appreciate Form 6. It may be the busiest and f-ed up year I ever spent on, still I'm grateful for all the friends I know this year. Especially the few of you- you know who you are.
Thanks for appearing in my life.

PS/ I LOOOVE indie musics a lot now. Mainstream is no longer my taste.

The Horizon

I used to have the map on my hands.

Out of some reasons, we lose ourselves in crossroads.

Hence, I must search for my home, once again by myself.

I need to wave away the fog, so I can see signboards again.

I must find sunshine again. Because dark clouds only pale your skin.

And on the road, I will choose to make wrong turns, because I am still allowed to.

It will be difficult to go back, as I had forgotten to cast pebbles on the paths I trodden.


But I must reach my home again.

And I promise myself, that I will reach there.