Observing

hmm..
I'm feeling kinda lazy nowadays to update my blog.
Mainly because I'm surfing a few websites at the same time, leaving 'New Post' there staring blankly at me; so I wrote blank things in return. And by the way, I'm itching to type in Mandarin again. I dunno why but I feel it helps me express more than what Eng can. It's funny you know, I used to thought that I have a fling with Eng, as I love to write and think (yeah, thinking) in Eng.
But no choice, I wanna type more in Eng to see how far my grammar goes. So in case I'm having major gram mistake do notify me haha~

Well school's been a rush as usual. BUT, I feel that I'm starting to catch up: I can actually pay 35% more concentration in class compared to last time. Not bad, a leap at least...
Cuz there are things (a lot of things actually) happening around me, somehow they are so #*^#ing annoying, that they prompted me to build this wall of emotions. It's a huge barrier, against unpleasent thoughts and raw emotions + laziness. It kinda work.
But I'm acting more weird. Eg, I wanna say something that's important to someone or else it may cause some misunderstanding, I somehow didn't express myself, and other things which are similiar to this incident. Here's the flaw of my barrier: Difficulty to express.

Of this wall thingy, I learnt about it from articles concerning psychology, online. Pretty awkward when you first heard it, but in fact it's so true, not those felt like made up weird thingy. As what I'd deduce from my observations. Some of my friends have this partial barrier too, in order to concentrate, they choose to ignore certain events and people some times, which rather annoy me. Imagine I'm talking to you, and you and I knew that you're listening, but you act like I ain't talking to you. =.= Well this barrier is for me to filter minor things out, more of a sort of 'meditating' while in conscious state, to block other outer influences and to focus on a particular subject. @.@ lame i know...
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Call me bitter. But lots of people today love to act like they know it all. Not pointing my finger to anybody particular but rather the events happening around me. See, a problem statement came in, and this people would like *eyes roll* talk like they're some kinda wise man or a great leader who have this solution or answer. I would wish that it struck them to do self-reflections and ego-checking first XD. To avoid confusion, they're not any yall know I guess. They're people with face I recognice but name unknown, so it's not anyone of yall, chill~ ^^

Coming to this topic, I do realise from my observ (haha I'm a self-indulging observer/questioner, I'm goin to the point of Mr. Know-it-all :P) that people tend to judge the behaviours of other people without really doing a full research. Myself included but that's the past tense already (Sometimes, I doubt it was a past @_@ like right now (?) ).
See, it's like through one's decision or action, we tend to label or brand that person, which is really not a good thing. Circumstances change people. We do not know how one feels when one is carrying out an action.

Human judge with emotion, and rarely with logic.
(A quote from Fullmetal Achemist XD, nicest anime I've seen this year so far)
But good friends do not do that :) we see each other's flaws, yet we appreciate each other for being able to blend with it, and overlook jagged edge over to their flawless edge ^^

Anyway, a break from my 'observations'.
Hmm.. In the near near future, I would definitely write a blog post back in Chi. Then sorta change this blog into a music platform haha... Which the music have lesser mainstream attention ones. Then upload some pix I had taken to share with yall bout my life in the past few weeks/month (Definitely not S.S. pix XD). Oh yeah, I would love to add a music cafe theme to this blog. Yup, cafe, with coffees and evening teas, my fav. With late evening sky and rainy day and night time ^^ that is until I'd learn how to change blog's HTML thingy yet. Haha.

Exams coming. Try hard. If it stuck, try harder :)
Strive together...

Rush

Life is always a rush.
Time is either chasing us, or we chase it.

Yet, I have to constantly remind myself to slow down and observe my surroundings, so that I do not miss anything beautiful passes by.
Some of my decisions are painful, so as the mistakes. But if that is it, then that's an injury that I will bear.
CNY comes to an end. School starts again.
So, I'll need to pack my suitcase now, and continue travelling.
Would you be a friend, who would join me in a bus, or follow into a limousin?

Insomnia 101

Hmm.. Lesser time of emo-ness from me and lets
Have some laughs for now.
Here's what I stumbled on Youtube today as I can't sleep right now... Kinda insomnia I guess...
So this is one of the vids that makes me laugh like $hht XD XD XD

Warning: Strictly for people who can't stand rude/vulgar (it's not porn =.=, literally :P) things. Not recommended for good boys & girls. You know who you are if you can take this in.
The offensive-less would be the last two.
While the funniest (ever!) part is at 3:30 for vid #2
BE WARNED for the first two!

Speechless

Gaga's version


My 'cover' rendition; thanks Gaga for your soulful song
I can't believe
what we've reached today
Last time it was okay...
Once again you threw your arms up
Honey, you gave up- you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at us
With your Hepburn starry loook
And after it's through
And I won't be there
Do you think I can turn my eyes all bliiind..?!

Must you walk through all the nails?
Are your speeches' just a show?

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So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you've left me speechless
There's no point to argue
I'm speechless
So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you left me speechless
You left me speechless
So speechless
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I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your insane swollen eyes
You popped my sanity
All my bubbled dreams, fantassy...

I can't believe how you replied us
With your broken spirit wail
If he gets you this time
And I'll swear I'll do a criiime...

I know it's damn complicated
But if you could just open your heart awhile
Let our voices in
Because your love is blind it is a deformed soul

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So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you've left me speechless
There's no point to argue
I'm speechless
So I'll never talk again
Oh gal you left me speechless
You left me speechless
So speechless
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And after all the drinks and trips that we've been through
You'd still give it away
You still give it away to him
And after all the peace that we have been into
You still give them away
You still give them away

Oh I promise you
That I'll never argue again
I'll never voice again
I'll leave here in a day
This I promise you

Ho-o-o-ow?
Ho-o-o-ow?
I'm speechless...

One Day...

Some day, I'll leave this place...

And never come back until I have the courage to do so...

In life, we have to depart eventually.

All that hinders is time.


Wishing all of you spaces and time to enrich your journey of self-discovery :)

Happy New Year and Happy Valentine's Day ^^

Melaka IS The New KL

Hmm... Monday's Grammy performance by Lady Gaga, P!nk and the MJ tribute are amazing! But Beyonce won 6, 6!!!?? What the... =.=

...Then Friday: Jusco/Aeon is finally OPEN!!!!! Woohoo!
And it is grand/beautiful/cool/nice/out-of-Melaka, anything- its *thumbs up*!

Its BIGGER BETTER GRANDER CHEAPER & COOLER than KL's Mid Valley, The Curve, Times Square etc or even our Dataran, those are HISTORY!
It took quite some time to find the parking since it's the opening day, and it took a longer time to get out of the compound...

But-
1 You can find practically almost every brand of clothing lines & food outlets
2 The complex's so big you can spend big time inside there
3 It seems there's gonna be a cineplex opening there soon, so finger crossed^^
4 The interior design is not bad, nice~ & there's plaenty of free food samplings :P
5 It's fresh and BIG, you might thought that you're in KL now...only BETTER than that place
6 Since it's sales now its CHEAP
7 Its modern and world-class
8 It is near my house...woohoo!

But-
Every weekend there will have traffic jams jams & jams around Bachang area now T.T

But-
It's Jusco/Aeon!

So-
Sorry for all of you out there not in Melaka, hahahaah... (lame I know)
Don't miss the spot, head there the next time you come there, not your home first XD
Finalized my CNY clothes shopping there- cheers~



This is not exactly how spacious the place is...you gotta check it out yourself haha...





There's this The Garden on the top of this complex. Even though there's plenty of parking spaces, they are still not sufficient enough foe hardcore shoppers like us...



I went into the bathroom and guess what? The cubicles are damn spacious.
And there are this these small notice board with drawn dummies either squatting or sitting on a toilet bowl, showing what type of toilet bowl is behind that door. Can't take its pic cuz it'll make me awkward XD Who actually would take pic inside the bathroom? ;p

Sick~

Every year, there would be a day or two for me where I'll get sick.
It ain't a big problem, usually my sickness are severe headache/fever, quite minor but since I can't concentrate in class, why continue them =.=

So this morning I woke up with a big headache. After finishing my coffee and biscuit, I took a Panadol. Which is where this nightmare starts.

As usual, I went to SKE for early study/finishing leftover homework before heading to school at 7.25am.
But my headache grew more severe that a monk who spot me lying down for a moment asked me whether I am okay. "Don't stress yourself if you can't..." he said with a nod and a smile.
I should have taken his words.

This is the first time since primary school that I vomit in school. Luckily not in the class this time.
There's two or three moments where I almost puke. Just can't stand it. After that I just went in to the toilet after done some explaination to Mr CYL on the way, then I puked in the toilet- 4 times!
And yeah, it's the first time I stuck my fingers into my mouth and *bluuueek*

Felt refreshed after that, finally can breathe properly. But still kinda dizzy > Head home.

Then slept from 11am till 5pm. And I'm still sleepy now. (Amazing, I can still type quite fast now)
Didn't eat anything, not lunch nor dinner. Had some warm Ribena only (cuz it has glucose, I guess), and kiam seng di to hold that stomach from puking again.

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And oh yeah, I'm sick of study too.
All the teachers are great. But I just can't handle the speed.
Let's use the teachers as mother feeding the kids for example.

Mr. Chin is very dedicated. No, too dedicated.
He's like feeding you, but without concern whether you have chewed the food and swallow it, he then feeds you again and again. My mouth's gonna burst anytime soon.

Mr. Lai is like feeding you, but if you're too slow to swallow your food, he'll throw away the food on the spoon and proceed to another one. He's darn punctual by the way. I haven't even digest the previous lessonand then I have to proceed again T.T

Mr. Chu, hmm what can I say~ At least I'm following the lesson this time compared to last year, but yawn~

Mr. Mani's & Pn. Nur Jannah's lesson: Finally I can gasp for air. That's why I'm always looking forward to their periods =P

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But the problem still lies on me- Am I gonna work my arse this time, or not? We'll see.


PS/ Gonna post my blog in English until MUET's done.

Have a nice day :)